Nearly there....

Phew!  What an absolutely life changing month May has been.  

In less than a week now, Lucky Phil and I will be taking the next big active step towards making our world a happier and more fulfilling place....

It started mid last month actually, when an opportunity presented itself that was too good to pass up and was a key stepping stone to changing our lives.  For so long we have preached to each other and to any one within earshot that if you aren't happy with something, you need to actively change it to get a different result, potentially the result you would prefer.  Change will happen on it's own but usually slowly.  You need to take decisive action to force change if you want it to happen any earlier.  And then something happened for 3 years in our lives where we stopped listening to our own advice and sunk into a cesspool of self-doubt and stagnation.  Three years of it.  It has nearly been the undoing of us (not 'us' us - just of our own selves).

But then we had a startling realisation, a light bulb moment, when we saw that this hole we were in was of our own doing and that we had the key to the door to get out of it.....Amazing thing the mind, change your mindset and you change your outlook on life and all of a sudden the clouds  in the sky are pretty and fluffy and a sign of a beautiful day rather than an indication of a potential storm....

And that's what we did.  We changed our mindset and now we are about to reap the rewards.  Last week I worked my last day in my job.  This weekend we pick up the keys to our new place in Brisbane and in a week we will be moving.  A week after that we will be taking over our new business and once again working together, just Lucky Phil and I.  About a month after that, the sale of our investment property will be finalised and our house will be rented out.

All happening at once.  Very exciting.

Now I just have to go through our bits and bobs and accumulated 'stuff' and work out what to keep, what to donate, what to chuck and what to store.  Three bedroom house on land to two bedroom unit.  I need to be very choosy.  

Nothing like a short timeline to really get the blood pumping!  

New chapter

I think I'm getting my groove back.  Actually, I know I am.  I can feel it.

It's a nice feeling.

Some big changes are in the works here in my world.  Plans have been formed on the fly and decisions made in moments.  And it feels good.  Feels right.

The biggest of those plans is the one where we pack up and leave this place where we currently live and go somewhere else.  A big decision at the best of times, packing up and moving, but one we have tossed around for a while and were planning at the end of the year anyway.  But we had an opportunity present itself Monday week ago that was too good to let slip through our fingers.  It didn't take much talking to decide to jump in with both feet!

And so we are.  Jumping without really looking.  No real safety net, no concrete plans, just an idea and a goal.  Irresponsible maybe?  But we are okay with it and willing to take our chances.  I mean, what is the worst that could happen?  We have to change our plans?  We have to come back?  Not ideal but if we had to, we could.

I never would would have thought that I would be okay with this sort of spontaneity, being as I am usually the one to have everything planned months in advance with plans made and written in triplicate, signed and filed well in advance.  And yet here I am, pushing for it, champing at the bit that it is taking so long and the end of next month is sooo far away!

Are we running away?  Or are we starting the next chapter?  Right now, I'm going with the new chapter.  We have spent too long waiting for things to change and they haven't.  So now we are making the change.  Forcing it.  Carving out our own new path.  And it feels good to be making decisions again.  Decisions that will bring about change from what we are doing now which is making us unhappy and miserable.

Lucky Phil always says that you can't expect a different result when you keep doing the same thing over and over again.  At last, we are following our own advice and doing something different.

Different is good.

Here's cheers to the next chapter!

Marching on....

So it's been a while.

Time has a tendency to disappear on me these days.  Half the time I don't know if I'm coming or going.  I mean, we're in March already, for Pete's sake! (who is Pete, btw?).

I've been feeling a little out-of-sorts lately.  Not right.  Not me.  

I don't know what my problem is, really.  I mean, this year is shaping up to be the best year in quite a few.  I should be so very happy for the promise of the future that is but just a few weeks (days?) away.  But for some reason I'm all teary and anxious. I can't see the forest for the trees.    I'm blinded by the past, fearful of the future.  You know, that sort of thing.

I'm hoping it's just a result of my usual knee-jerk reaction to change.  Flight I am.  No fight in me.  Uncontrollable on my part initially but eventually I reign it in.  But this one feels like something more.  Something deep down that hasn't been addressed......

My sleep is interrupted.  I'm having trouble being on my own longer than an hour or two.  I wish I would stop eating the world (good thing I haven't been shopping in a while and there is no crap on the shelves otherwise I would be inhaling it).  I keep crying.  I don't want to go to work.  

I don't know.  

I just wish I could stop the crying for no reason.  I don't have the disposition for it.

I see the doctor on Monday.

It's a hard life

Beautiful Bali.

Loving it 😄😄😄

Jetsetting

Out of office reply:
Thanks for stopping by but I'm not here at the moment. I've packed my bag and am about to board a jet plane.

Lucky Phil and I are off to beautiful Bali for a week, after having spent the weekend in Melbourne. I'm not far from turning my phone onto international roam which means ill turn my data access off too (at a million dollars er GB I think I'll pass!!) but thought one last post before I leave 😄

No cooking for me this week but my goal re my Cookbook Cookoff Challenge is to try some new meals instead of my usual nasi goreng ayam and gado gado! Expect a report when I get back...

See you all on the flip side!!!

Rainy day activities

So it's raining today. Has been for the last three days. At least we don't have the gale force winds of the other night. Truly, I thought we'd lose the tin on the roof that night, nailed on as it is.

Right now the rain is an intermittent sprinkle. Enough to make you think you should go out and do something productive but then rethink cos you'll get too wet.

I'm happy sitting on the front verandah, doing my cross-stitch and watching lucky Phil fertilize the hedge plants.

Grateful that I'm high and dry, I wish all the flood affected parts of Queensland a safe evening.

Agileh

Agileh = happy man